All of these happen. Daily. Often, many times a day. I’m pretty sure no one around me can tell. Most of the time no one is around when they occur.
And, I know I’m not alone. I know from speaking about it to other mental illness survivors that it happens to them too. Maybe not exactly the same things or thoughts but similar enough to let me know I’m not alone. These are the types of things we deal with while getting through every single day of our lives. A battle so many wage. A fight no one sees.
So, this month especially, take some time to simply be more aware of this. Just based on the numbers we know, you have someone in your life who, like me, is living with this. Living like this. Maybe that is you. Every single task, choice, decision, effort, and breath is happening with things like I described above also going on.
The three scenarios Patrick describes are me, err, mine. He describes his as The Piggyback Guy, Churchill had his Black Dog, and mine is like a orangutang that sits heavy on my chest when I’m laying down or has his long arms (sometimes he uses his legs, orients himself hind end up, and it’s stinky).